Katy Perry has admitted she considered suicide following her split with Orlando Bloom in 2017. The couple has since reconciled and is expecting their first child together but at the time the pop icon said she felt "broken." It did not help that her album did not sell as well as she had hoped.
"I had broken up with my boyfriend, who is now my baby-daddy-to-be, and then I was excited about flying high off the next record and the record didn't get me high anymore," Perry said in an interview with Canadian radio show "Q on CBC," as cited by CNN. "The validation didn't get me high, and so I just crashed.
The 35-year-old singer, whose real name is Katheryn Hudson, said she lost her smile when her life sunk into a downward spiral. She said that the "seismic" impact "literally broke me in half." It took hitting rock bottom for Perry to realize the importance of gratitude.
"It was so important for me to be broken so that I could find my wholeness in a whole different way. And be more dimensional than just living my life like a thirsty pop star all the time," she said. "Gratitude is probably the thing that saved my life, because if I didn't find that I would have wallowed in my own sadness and probably just jumped, but I found the ways to be grateful."
Perry added that she found strength in faith.
"Hope has always been an option for me . . . because of my relationship with God and something bigger than me. If I'm the only one controlling my destiny of course it's going to be, like, I am going to drive it into the ground," she said.
"My hope is that something bigger than me created me for a purpose and created me for a reason, and that I'm not disposable, and that, you know, every person that's been created has a purpose."